Monthly Archives: September 2011

The Road To Yes

22 Sep

We’re a posse that understands the meaningfulness of firsts.   First time in the infusion lab.  First tug and eerie release of your here-to-fore sturdy hair.  First time hearing the solid “thunk” of the door closing as everyone flees the radiation room, yet you are left behind.

So many firsts.  So many difficult firsts.

But life has a way of evening things out.  The pendulum swings back.  The trick, it seems, is to catch it and go for a new ride.  Take a chance.  Try something new.

I am now on the side of more pleasant firsts, thankfully.  Like this past weekend, I was part of a gala event called Truth Be Told for the Premiere Oncology Foundation in Santa Monica, California.   I was invited as a storyteller, along with 10 other cancer survivors, to put a face on this disease.

I grabbed, and I swung.  I mean, I’m not a professional speaker.  I like speaking.  Do it a lot, actually, every day.  But not on stage.  And certainly not alone, without notes or a podium.  Terrifying?  You bet.   But so amazingly juicy to force myself to push through my comfort zone.

Not only did I get to simmer for 2 days with some soulful people, but I got to share my work with the audience, and ask them to consider the importance of talking to our kids about our cancer treatment.  In other words, saying yes to opening myself up to strangers allowed me to further a discussion that I am passionate about.

Life is just a series of firsts, punctuated by long stretches of the same old, same old.  For cancer patients, saying yes is part of the treatment.   We have to agree to some protocol and move forward.  But having an enthusiastic “Sure!” to what comes after we’re all finished with our doctor visits, that is part of the wisdom borne of a cancer diagnosis.

Share your “Yes!” story.  For those just stepping into their diagnosis, reading about life on the other side is healing.

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Live live

8 Sep

Do you read that as repetitious?  Or do you hear the difference in the two words?  The first word being the thing that we all wish to do.  The second, as in “Live from New York, it’s Saturday Night!”  As in paying attention.  As in with energy.  As in right now.

My name is Sue, and when I was 33 I found myself focusing on the word “live”.  I was handed a breast cancer diagnosis just about a year after being handed my first (and only) child.  The duality of this situation wasn’t lost on me for a moment, and I vowed,  as I scrambled after his adorable little toddler bottom, that as he grew ever onward, I would do the same.

I mean, really, what else could I think?  It was a potent incentive, to be sure.

It’s funny how, when I look back on that day 12 years ago, I was more a “glass half empty” kind of gal.  Not in a tragic, Eeyore way, but just in a subtle way.  I was (and still am) married to Mr. Sunnyside Up, and his positivity at most everything sometimes baffled me.

Not anymore.

I understand now with piercing clarity that life is what happens every single dingle moment of the day, and why not focus on the positive and steer away from the negative?  For those of us who have pondered the end of our own lives, we are considerate of our time.   We appreciate our time.   All of it.

As I try to not let cancer define me, I understand that it has left an indelible mark on me, both physically and emotionally.   What I don’t want this blog to do is wallow in the yucky.  I choose to inspire.  To tickle your curiosity.  To make you smile.  Snicker.

Most of all, to make you squeeze life a wee bit more.

Words have always been my friend, and I enjoy storytelling.  I also try and listen (both with my ears and my eyes) to what is happening around me, and remind others of the sublime, ridiculous, and beautiful moments that happen when we live live.

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